my life in OnG posting

i'm currently in Obstetrical and Gynecology(OnG) posting, a posting which i always interested since my fifth semester in Manipal.
i still remember the first time i watch a labor, once the fetus head is out, my tears dropped, and i called my mother the next morning, urging to hear her voice. It is such a painful sequence, an event which i think a mother won't forget throughout her life.

"sister! sister! i think i can't make it!!" by a mother who is having labor two days ago. she is trying to give up initially though we had seen the head. Maybe she thinks it is too suffering, or she thinks she can't bare with the pain anymore, or other few causes! But the nurses on shift never give up. They scolded the mother (like usual government nurses!). By pushing breathing and pushing, head is out, follow by neck, then shoulders of both side, then in less than 2 seconds, the whole body is out. This is like American Football, running40 yards, 20 yards, 10 yards! i can see a relived on the mother's face together with an expression as if they have just came out from the hell!

When the nurses show the baby to the mother. everything is over. a sweet sweet smile by the mother, and the first breast feeding. Such a harmony moment.

But, not every mother can be that lucky!

"doctor! doctor! breech! breech!" shouted by nurses when we were having class with Dr. Rahim.
A Malay mother with 30 weeks of period of gestation, having breech presentation who is having preterm labor. All the staffs in the wards were panic-ing , this is because non of them ever seen any breech delivery. Dr.Rahim, the Hod of OnG department, came out slowly from the classroom, and ordering the staff while trying to comfort the mother who is screaming of pain.

while observing the whole event, i was inspired by Dr. Rahim. i really admire of his calmness. while everyone is panic and running around, he went to talk to the mother,
" don't worry, we are here. i am Dr Rahim, i am here to help you. don't panic!"

once in labor room. i was shocked! half of the lower pole of body is outside the vulva. but, Dr. Rahim still in a steady mood, conducting the delivery. At that moment, i started feeling that be an obstetrician is really great. Dr. Rahim really inspired me a lot that day, and i am telling myself, very sure that, i am going to take up obstetrics and gynac as my specialist in the future. By bringing so many new lives to the world, isn't it a great job?

i was thinking, it is really a miracle and no one can imagine how wonderful a delivery till he or she has seen it.

"10cm journey through vagina is the most critical journey in a person's life."
this is very true. this is because a small mistake will put both the baby and mother in risk.
Be an obstetrician isn't easy, still i am going for it.

i want to be Rahim Ngu!
call me Dr. Rahim Ngu!

exam!!!!!

exam will be on the third day of chienese new year! one week of my study break has passed, but my revision go on very slow! my internal also won't help much. means i really have to work very very hard to pass my uni exam!
god please help me!
pray for me as well!

hard time coming

my forth block will be in next week! then three weeks of study week, then i will be putting on the judgment table!------ my university exam! hope everything will go fine and steady!

hope i won't be like the fish putting on the plate to wait for being eaten!

second year is a bit too fast for me! i remember when i was in form six, my MUET teacher told us," time really runs fast, just in a glimpse of eye, we are again in the weekend!"
then, a friend in my class answer her,"madam, there must be something wrong with your eye!"
it sounds very lame! but this is my feeling now! time really runs fast. too fast till i can't recall what have i done in this year! or, what are those important things that i have learned this year!
scary......
by the way, i have formed one team to travel to the north India! a team of seven people, are planning to go to the north India after the university exam! so, i have to score well this time, so that i can travel with a relaxing and happy feeling!
note: recently there are some cases happen in Pakistan which might involve the India border where we are going to travel to! hopefully everything with be fine and safe during the travel time!

train: our most important transportation during the trip!

rainny day

snowing in manipal?
ha ha.. this afternoon during lunch time, i was suddenly so desperate to take some picture! i can say I'm hunger of professional picture. by the way, i dun have photo on raining in my collection, so, I'm trying to find some angle on my balcony. unfortunately , Lilian's room became the background, i accidentally took a picture which the rain drops look like crystal falling in manipal! (hah! i think Lilian will be the one who shout out loud!!)
is like snowing as well.
for your information, it's the raining season here now. such a good weather to hibernate.
by the way, u can see my photo is not that clear anymore, i think something wrong with my beloved camera.. so sad!
ya, a couple passed by when I'm doing my boring photography. they are walking in the rainy day, sharing an umbrella!(not very obvious!!)
romantic?
ya, i can guarantee most of the single guys are wishing to have this moment.
..... including me! ha ha...
(still have a long way to go)

my confesed sunday

is such a good weather this morning, a rainy morning with cool weather.
because of staying till too late in the previous night, so, i was very tired and enjoying hiding myself in my smelly blanket. unfortunately, this "enjoyable" moment could not last long with the disturbed by my housemates who knocked on my purposely locked door! (actually, i have decided to purposely oversleep and skip the church Sunday service!! hope my housemate won't angry and fainted because of stroke when he read this.)
ya, nickson, my housemates had tried to wake me up to attend the Sunday church service. after that, i continue to sleep back, so that i could really oversleep and let everything go "smooth"!
but, after ten minutes, my heart suddenly feel discomfort! something or some sound from my heart kept on telling me that, Satan the evil going to be successfully conquering your heart! the sound kept on repeating attack me! my heart became very miserable, and peace less.


only then, i start remember that this might be the work of holy spirit. i told myself, i should be happy that god still be with me and does not throw me a part when i try to stay away from him. and, guiltiness start to appear in my mind! i felt so guilty that i have chosen to do the wrong thing that is against my beloved heaven father. without thinking twice, i quickly have myself clean and attended a very useful Sunday service.i really have to thank lord for his forgiveness and his care for me! at least now, i heart feel like being comforted and peace.
by the way, today's sermon by pastor is about faith. ya, i have almost lost myself after i lost my faith on my father in heaven! life goes so disarranged and full of sins.the song sang this morning," i lost without you, I'm desperate for you!" everything seems to have been arranged to teach me to come back to Him. o lord, thank you for your wonderful grace and care.

now, i fell as if somebody is holding my hand and walk along with me! we must have faith on our lord, and He will not let us down. have faith on him , cast our burden to him, because whatever which is impossible for us is possible for Him to solve it for us!