my forth block will be in next week! then three weeks of study week, then i will be putting on the judgment table!------ my university exam! hope everything will go fine and steady!
hope i won't be like the fish putting on the plate to wait for being eaten!
second year is a bit too fast for me! i remember when i was in form six, my MUET teacher told us," time really runs fast, just in a glimpse of eye, we are again in the weekend!" then, a friend in my class answer her,"madam, there must be something wrong with your eye!" it sounds very lame! but this is my feeling now! time really runs fast. too fast till i can't recall what have i done in this year! or, what are those important things that i have learned this year! scary...... by the way, i have formed one team to travel to the north India! a team of seven people, are planning to go to the north India after the university exam! so, i have to score well this time, so that i can travel with a relaxing and happy feeling! note: recently there are some cases happen in Pakistan which might involve the India border where we are going to travel to! hopefully everything with be fine and safe during the travel time!
train: our most important transportation during the trip!
Throughout this year, I have been keeping on telling myself thatI must have faith for myself to complete second year! But, always when reach the time of exam, I used only my limited power to face all the challenge! I can say, without practicing for so long, I have forgotten how am I supposed to use my hidden power-- the faith to god! Today's devotion, there is a sentence," it is taking a pencil and underlining every 'me',' mine', 'my' in the bible."
I think over and over, it is very true. I'm going to complete my second round of life next year, but how many promises in bible I completed for god?Sorry lord……
Some story of my life for the pass few days,
25th December 2007, we are celebrating Christmas. I can say, the Christmas celebration this year is very much better than last year, because I am happy that I have done something, at least a thing for god for the Christmas this year!
My roommates and i held a meaningful Christmas for some of our friends from my batch! I pray so that they will also understand the main purpose of having Christmas celebration! Is the celebration of the birth of our beloved Jesus Christ
then on the 25th December, some of my friends from grace church were gathering in valley hotel for christmas lunch! nice experience, and when i stepped in to the lunch hall, i feel like i am somewhere in four star hotel in Malaysia.
actually there are six of us, hui ming left before i manage to ask someone to take picture for us!
My devotion today is about the holiness. So, thereis one sentence, "holiness appear to me to have a sweet, calm, pleasant, charming and serene nature, all of which brings an inexperiencible purity, radiance, peacefulness and overwhelming joy to the soul."
So, I'm thinking over by myself. With the experience which Ihave gained till now, I agree with above statement, and, for me, holiness also give me freedom, and a trust! I feel I am more free when I keep myself holy with god! And, when I am close to god, I feel the trust, then the peace! I love this feeling. Unfortunately, I never keep myself holy continuously. That's why people say, u must pay to what u have done! I once a guy who go to church but does not follow the rules completely, now, the sin still stain on my heart! I have tried to clean all of it, but some still remain there. And, sometimes I might repeat the sin which keep me away from god!
Second week of block four, times really running fast. Second year almost end already! And, I don think I have learned a lot in this year, still very blur with the subject! Maybeit is because I have played too much in this year! Sorry mum! By the way, I start to feel that it is better to stay in hostel, even though the life inside there gets limited, I feel I will be discipline to live inside there! Haihz… should I shift out?
I think my family should be in shang hai now. Too bad I can't follow them!
here, i share one of my latest product, i hope i can always be the bee, be hardworking... work hard for what i want.
finally back to my hometown! initially, it is a very happy moment for me! but sad news come together with me! my wife was suffering impairment in organ's function! my laptop was sent to factory and was diagnosed that her motherboard which is attached together with sound card together with graphic card was not in good condition! damn it! i just bought the laptop for two years and it is broke down now! luckily my hard drive was not affected! still my laptop was not with now, is in the factory. so, i can't share any picture inside here at the moment! maybe i could looking forward for a new laptop? haha.... any recommended brand?
snowing in manipal? ha ha.. this afternoon during lunch time, i was suddenly so desperate to take some picture! i can say I'm hunger of professional picture. by the way, i dun have photo on raining in my collection, so, I'm trying to find some angle on my balcony. unfortunately , Lilian's room became the background, i accidentally took a picture which the rain drops look like crystal falling in manipal! (hah! i think Lilian will be the one who shout out loud!!) is like snowing as well. for your information, it's the raining season here now. such a good weather to hibernate. by the way, u can see my photo is not that clear anymore, i think something wrong with my beloved camera.. so sad! ya, a couple passed by when I'm doing my boring photography. they are walking in the rainy day, sharing an umbrella!(not very obvious!!) romantic? ya, i can guarantee most of the single guys are wishing to have this moment. ..... including me! ha ha... (still have a long way to go)
is such a good weather this morning, a rainy morning with cool weather. because of staying till too late in the previous night, so, i was very tired and enjoying hiding myself in my smelly blanket. unfortunately, this "enjoyable" moment could not last long with the disturbed by my housemates who knocked on my purposely locked door! (actually, i have decided to purposely oversleep and skip the church Sunday service!! hope my housemate won't angry and fainted because of stroke when he read this.) ya, nickson, my housemates had tried to wake me up to attend the Sunday church service. after that, i continue to sleep back, so that i could really oversleep and let everything go "smooth"! but, after ten minutes, my heart suddenly feel discomfort! something or some sound from my heart kept on telling me that, Satan the evil going to be successfully conquering your heart! the sound kept on repeating attack me! my heart became very miserable, and peace less.
only then, i start remember that this might be the work of holy spirit. i told myself, i should be happy that god still be with me and does not throw me a part when i try to stay away from him. and, guiltiness start to appear in my mind! i felt so guilty that i have chosen to do the wrong thing that is against my beloved heaven father. without thinking twice, i quickly have myself clean and attended a very useful Sunday service.i really have to thank lord for his forgiveness and his care for me! at least now, i heart feel like being comforted and peace. by the way, today's sermon by pastor is about faith. ya, i have almost lost myself after i lost my faith on my father in heaven! life goes so disarranged and full of sins.the song sang this morning," i lost without you, I'm desperate for you!" everything seems to have been arranged to teach me to come back to Him. o lord, thank you for your wonderful grace and care. now, i fell as if somebody is holding my hand and walk along with me! we must have faith on our lord, and He will not let us down. have faith on him , cast our burden to him, because whatever which is impossible for us is possible for Him to solve it for us!
it's saturday evening! since starting of second year, time has ran faster compare to first year! my second block exam is coming in another two weeks time, but i still have thousand tones of knowledge remain in the book, which i should install into my personal hard-drive (my brain which i think has limited processor speed and also going to run out of space!). ya, every day start thinking of exam is coming near, and i should spend more of time on books! but things went in the opposite will! i found out that i have spent much of my time in front of my laptop, searching for nth! just click and time is wasted! i try to keep my laptop in my friend's room, but my maniac behaviour keep asking me to take it back and search in the net! this make feel like i am addicted! (start feeling scared of this behaviour! haha....) so, wut should i do?
now, suddenly feel very depressed. huh! wut to do? life still have to go on!
but i believe in god that he will guide me out from my problem! since i re-accepted god, HE never let me down when i have problem! so, trust in HIM is the best way for me to solve my problem!