its all LAN's fault.

Everything is because of LAN.

First of all, I admit that I’m the kind of guy who cares family very much. I might sounds very disobedience in family, but I always love my parents and my siblings.

Story starts like this, during the LAN class in the morning, there was a statement in history that Portuguese had taken Melaka for 130 years, which is around 2 generation. (A generation is 75 years).

So, I started to have something in my mind. I’m already 25 this year; I still left 50 years on earth. Then, I start realizing that not everyone will accompany me for the next 50 years, especially my beloved parents.(studies shows that average of human life is around 72 years.)

Both of them are around 55 this year. Theoretically they have another 25 to 30 years time with me on earth. I can’t imagine what I will feel at that moment when they leave me. 30 years sound long but it actually runs very fast.

During the class, I start calculating, if I manage to complete my study in 2 year, I have to work for government for another 5 years, and then prepare to have my own family. At least 15 years of time I need to prepare myself for the next phase of my life. How much time I left for my mum and my dad? If accidentally they suffer from amnesia, how much more happy moment can we recollect?

I start to leave my family since 2005 for my studies. I have not stay in my home for more than 2 months for the past 4 years. This year even less...

When I was young, I always wished to go out from home, staying alone outside. I still remember the night before I left my home, my mum come to my bedside and talked to me in a very soft voice, “What u wish all the while has came true, right? Remember, when you start leaving home, this house will only become a hotel for you. You might not have chance to stay longer here.”

Mother F***er, I almost cried out during that time but I hold… I want to say,” At this moment, I wish to stay here,i don't want to go anywhere.”

After five years, how I wish I could go back home spending time with my family. When I see my friends going back home every weekend, how I wish I could do the same thing. It is not fun to stay away from family.

When I have time for my family, they might don’t have it for me.

Every time when I look at my mum, the wrinkles become more and deeper. Especially in the past 5 years.

I always pray so that God always protect my parents, provide them healthy life, so that we can spend more time together.

Just want to conclude here by telling that,” mum, dad! I love you! I will study hard and never let you down.”

for all the mother