love

few months back, a fren of mine introduce a book to me, written by Gray John, Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. but due to my studies, i didn't really have an urge to read this book. and, when i grab this book to read yesterday, i realize i am so a typical Mars that most of the Venusian will not like.

i recall my friend told Vincent is a very self centered man. what ever things he told, all the people must follow. maybe i was brought out in this kind of family. most of my relatives were behaving in this way.

sometimes, i don't really realize my bad habit, and even think that i am the kind of guy who is very caring and respect to a girl.

i admit, i do love a girl in the last few months. and, was trying to change myself when i know my bad habit. but, i didn't put my effort in. i should read that book before i really put my responsible in that relationship, to impress her. but, it is too late... she has now walking far from me, and i also had actually push her away from me.

from the boo, it mentioned that, women are group of people who requires care and communication. this is very true. i realise when i put myself accompany a girl to talk,this will make her more comfortable, impress her more. when she wants to have peace, she will feel more comfortable when i just sit beside her and accompany her going through all her problems.

martian like me, is a very rushing person. i like to see my result. that is why every time, when i work out something, immediately i will ask around to see how they evaluate me. when i suddenly feel that, "eh! something is wrong!" i will try to fix it immediately. but when things go really wrong, there goes vincent... the more i manage it, the more miserable is the problem.. and towards the end, i lost everything.

martians like to solve problem by themselves. and this is actually very true. for me, i seldom seek for advice, and things really get worse when i try to handle by myself. really sad with my own attitude.

in year 2009, vincent is deeply in love with a venusian. and i do love and learn from her a lot. after all, it is my first time after my last one 6 years ago. i do enjoy this one, it makes feel been in the wonderland. though i have lost her heart, i still occupied by her.. and this time i am totally lost her, completely.

for guys and girls out there, faster grab this book nourish and motivated yourself. dun let things change before it is too late. relationship is a precious thing, a good partner isn't easy to be found.
and never force a girl to do things she doesn't like. the more you force, the further they will walk from you.

1st of october 2009, vincent has lost her... gonna start a new day..

and to her, i confess to you.. dun scold me, don't get angry with me, i know i have irritated you so much.. and take care... Venusian, sincerely wishing another nice martians will crush to you soon..

i believe if god arrange both of us together, eventually we will still be together.